After the moment has passed, I'm hit with the full force of what's happened. Sometimes, it's earth-shattering and turns my world upside down, like when I was laid off from my job. Other times it's like slowly sinking into sadness, like when a friend cancels our lunch a few hours before we're due to meet.
In both cases, I completely understand why it happened, but that knowledge didn't stop the feeling of a rug being pulled from under my feet. In the case of the lunch meet, especially because it's happened so many times before.
It's life - life happens. I know this, so why doesn't it hurt any less?
Star .
Listening to: 'Wild Thoughts' (Medasin Dance Remix) by DJ Khaled ft. Rihanna & Bryson Tiller
Reading: The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle
Eating: Ranch vegan chickn burger (seitan deep fried in a crunchy coating, with ranch sauce, pickles and lettuce in brioche), paprika seasoned fries, and oat milk-based vanilla milkshake from Mercy Burger, brought to Boxpark Shoreditch from London fried chicken brand Coqfighter.
